"You want peace. There is no one who does not want peace.
Yet there is something else in you that wants the drama, wants
the conflict. You may not he able to feel it at this moment.
You may have to wait for a situation or even just a thought that
triggers a reaction in you: someone accusing you of this or that,
not acknowledging you, encroaching on your territory,
questioning the way you do things, an argument about money…..
Can you then feel the enormous surge of force moving
through you, the fear, perhaps being masked by anger or
hostility? Can you hear your own voice becoming harsh or shrill,
or louder and a few octaves lower? Can you be aware of your
mind racing to defend, position, justify; attack, blame?
In other words, can you awaken at that moment of unconsciousness?
Can you feel that there is something in you that is at war, something
that feels threatened and wants to survive at all costs, that needs the
drama in order to assert its identity as the victorious
character within that theatrical production? Can you feel there is
something in you that would rather be right than at peace?”
Eckhart Tolle